Sorry for the previous anguished post. I was feeling a bit depressed I think. Okay, to be honest the last few weeks have been a mixture of anxiety to the max and depression, hence why I didn't post a lot (I was sitting on my couch wallowing in my own self remorse and eating M&Ms). The reason for the depression is that I had a bit of job drama. Here goes. I had interviewed twice at two places. One, a really great firm that I thought I'd really like working for and it seemed they really liked me. The second was a well known carpet company to do a marketing job. Well, long story short I shot myself in the foot, because I didn't seem as enthusiastic about the carpet job because I thought I was going to get the firm job. And I got neither job. The firm has decided to wait until early next year to hire and the carpet job hired someone else.
So, I'm still unemployed and all the job postings (lame or otherwise have disappeared in the ATL area) so my 28 applications and 8 interviews were for nothing. So, besides wanting to cry every five minutes and not being able to for medical reasons (I still have my tear ducts, don't worry) and getting frustrated because I can't let my emotions out, I've decided to live abundantly. My new mantra is: I am living as though jobs are everywhere and I'm just too special, that the right one just hasn't found me and I'm being happy for my friends who recently got hired (because seriously where does being unhappy get me? I'm pretty sure it doesn't get me a job.) and I'm applying to my dream jobs, all over the country. Because if I've learned anything from this HORRIBLE experience it is applying means nothing. So why worry about moving across the country until I'm interviewing for these dream jobs (which I doubt will happen)? I'm keeping my chin up and counting my blessings everyday to get through my bad economy:
Blessing 1) No significant other (Now this may be the only advantage to this, but I can go where ever the hell I want to. Who cares if I signed a year lease? If a job calls, I'll be there)
Blessing 2) My parents (for supporting me in pursuing my dreams)
Blessing 3) My dog (who holds me when I'm tearless and sad)
Blessing 4) The possibility that this all happened for a reason. That reason being I will find my dream job, which is sitting and thinking about design and not actually executing it.
Blessing 5) The existence of chocolate, ice cream, and Starbucks to get me through those tough moments when I realize my dream job does not exist (at least in places where there is no snow).
So, I'm sorry to put you all through my mopping about, but since I can't cry I needed to get my feelings out somehow, someway, and that way is through TWIMO, the only good thing to come from my not having employment (okay and let's face it, I get to sleep till 10 everyday. My life could be worse). Hope you're all having a happy hump day! I'll get back to normal, weird posts tomorrow (I've got a great DIY one coming, so stay tuned).
Chin up, Charlie! I am so proud of you and your incredible talents...and totally believe that blessing 4 is the ABSOLUTE TRUTH!!! Well let's be honest, I also totally believe that chocolate is a blessing, too, and so is Clair, and obvi Mom & Pops TWIMO.
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Hey ma'am -- first off, not to be a bummer, but where's DIY Monday post?? But actually, I completely understand your frustration with life and the pursuit of employment. It doesn't help to get you a job to say, hey, I've been there -- but I have. And it sucks. And it makes you feel really bad. And did I mention it sucks? All told, since graduating five years ago, I have spent: 10.5 months unemployed. So . . . it happens. I've also spent 34 months employed. It balances out -- eventually. Also, I read a statistic that for every 10k you want to earn that's a month of job search. So for 40K -- that's four months. Unfortunately, just because you look longer your salary aspirations don't go up. But I think it's a comforting fact. The end of this month will only be 4 months -- and given the economy you are right on track for something wonderful. But mostly, my dear friend, it just sucks.
ReplyDeleteI love you both for your encouraging words!!! I wish you were by my side all the time. :)
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